The Broken Toys

by Bad Pollyanna

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Its Finally Here!

We are proud to present our second studio album: The Broken Toys.
We hope you enjoy this labour of love

Love Bad Pollyanna

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released December 1, 2015

Music and Lyrics by Olivia Hyde and Nikki Kontinen*
Engineered, Produced and Mixed by Tom Gittins at Monochrome Studios

*Additional material for Pull The Trigger and The Broken Toys by Tom Gittins and Mat Dauzat respectively

Vocals- Olivia Hyde
Bass, Programming, Synths- Nikki Kontinen
Guitars- Steve Kilpatrick
Drums- Valerian Adore

Artwork by Lily Kay
Additional Design Work by Alex Stephenson

Bad Pollyanna would like to thank Eloise Kerry, Aniko Toth and Jasz Vegas for their love and support

To Adam Crilly, Vera Muench, Lily K. Gibson, Taya Sharp, Catherine Waldby and Alex Stephenson, Thank you for getting me through the past year, I will always be grateful for your love, support and friendship. Olivia Hyde x

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As their oxymoronic name suggests, Bad Pollyanna represents a mix of both beauty and darkness. The band explores and celebrates the duality of love, sex and the human condition through music and art. Bad Pollyanna believe you should be whoever you want to be and are proud to support the Sophie Lancaster Foundation in conjunction with their sponsor - cult makeup brand Illamasqua. ... more

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Track Name: Define Me
Define Me

I'm coming out
So call your friends and gather round
It's time to judge and pin me down
I'm in the box you put me in
It's dark and I can't see a thing
No air, I need to breathe

I'm climbing out
Oh my god, alert the town
A freak, a monster's on the prowl
Shut it up and tear it down!
Grab your torch and pitchfork now

You label and name
Because you're afraid
Because it makes you feel safe
But here is the sting:
It don't mean a thing.
So everybody sing

Define me, de­fine me, somebody find me
Tell me what I am­ you know you love it
Define me, de­file me, somebody bind me
Make me what I am/ you want
You'll never break me down

You take me in
I deviate from the regime
So you decide that I'm obscene
What a privilege to be
In presence of authority
On all it means to be
A human being
You think I'm such a mystery
Can we ever agree to disagree
It's simply my philosophy
It's why you're safe but I am free

And If you can't relate to my powder and paint
Then won't you just look away
Cos here is the thing
We don't care what you think
So everybody sing:

Chorus

Oh my god ain't it fun to judge, ain't it fun to judge, ain't it fun to judge?
Oh my god now I'm covered in mud, now I'm covered in mud, ain't it fun to judge?
Oh my god now you want my blood, now you want my blood, ain't it fun to judge?
Oh my god now I'm covered in mud and you want my blood, ain't it fun to judge?

Chorus
Track Name: Bionic Heart
Bionic Heart

One by one
Switched the parts of me that had gone wrong
Cut the wires til the pain was gone
No longer human, I am strong, strong, strong I'm unbreakable
(but)

Hold me close you'll hear a heartbeat
Part of me I thought had given up
For a program to protect me
Automatic, cold and logical

(I look to the stars, my hand on my chest Wanna be whole, is it hopeless?)

Dare to want it and now my bionic heart is fighting for life
This machine could start to believe there might be something inside

Can I restart?
Disconnected and it seemed so smart
Became robotic, I am cold and hard
Biomimetic I am state of the art
But I went too far

Now I long to feel my heartbeat
Just existing and it's not enough
Though I'm numb to any suffering
I realize that the price is just too much

Dare to want it and now my bionic heart is fighting for life
This machine could start to believe it's not too late for my bionic heart

Don't, don't tell me there's no hope Don't, don't tell me I've no soul

Dare to want it and now my bionic heart is fighting for life
This machine could start to believe there might be something inside
I refined the shell I designed to keep me from coming apart
Could it be? Could I dare to dream there might be hope for my bionic heart
Track Name: Pull The Trigger
Pull The Trigger

I said I'd take a bullet for ya
But now it seems you hold the gun
Seems you're fit to pull the trigger
How they weep to see what we've become

Well if you wanna play with fire
I won't back away gonna take you on
Don't you want to see me suffer?
I won't run away, won't run away...come on

Pull the trigger Pull the trigger

Take the shot...whatcha waitin for
Take the shot shot... right through the head before I die from shame won't you pull it
As I look into your eyes

Take the shot...I want it over
Hit me with all you've got..but darlin won't yer Write your name...on the bullet
Be the last thing through my mind

Remember when we said forever?
Now it seems we can't hold on
So come and get away with murder
Blow it away til all of this is gone

You're not the person I remember
Standing there with your weapon
Cocked and loaded set to fire
I won't run away won't run away...come on

Chorus

So goodbye my lover
Now I'm finally ready
Put me out of my misery...
What's the point in carrying on
I'll keep a little dignity
But I hope to survive the bleed
So pull the trigger

Chorus
Track Name: Hooks
Hooks

My hooks are long
And strong...they cut so deep
Can you can feel me when you feel me
And my hooks inside you

I stick them into your chest
I twist them around
To remind you, I own you
Got my hooks inside you

And now they hold you
Now I'm in control
And now you're broken
Cut through to your soul

Don't try to pull them out
Or I will make you bleed
Hush baby... or they'll see me
And my hooks inside you

I feel you giving in
Now you belong to me
You know you deserve this ...
you deserve me
And my hooks inside

Chorus

Are you having trouble sleeping?
Do you feel sad, worthless, hopeless?
I am here to help
You need constant reinforcement through spaced repetition
Society may look down on you and believe you to be mentally unsound
Repeat after me:
I am safe, they will never know,
I am safe they will never know

You can run, you can hide
I'm always here hooks inside
You can cry all you like
I'm always here, you're always mine
Do you think you'd survive?
Pull them out you will die
I'm holding you, holding tight
Know that you've got my...
I've got my hooks inside you
Track Name: Ugly Love
Ugly Love

One day you're gonna break me, I'm not that strong
When all they want is beauty, you love all that's undone
What we do in the darkness may be all kinds of wrong
Awakened every demon you turned me from

Myself, into this, into it, I'm falling
You want it all, you've got me down on my knees
Can't give you up, shut it off, I'm trying
You are the cure, you are the disease

Take me over, I've given up
I'll lose myself in our ugly love
I surrender, won't look down
Let me drown in this twisted unreality

Your love brings out the ugly and it's not ok
To get you close to god then laugh at you when you pray
We peek behind the curtain now there's a price to pay
Just what is it about you that turns me from

Myself into this into you I'm falling
I want it all come on get down on your knees
Can't give you up shut it off I'm trying
You are the cure you are the disease

Chorus

Beautiful lies keep me beholden to you
Move inside my mind and take control
Show no mercy­ stay here and drive me crazy
Never let me go

Take me over, you're not above
This ugly love.

Take me over, I've given up
I'll lose myself in our ugly love
I surrender, won't look down
Let me drown in this twisted unreality

Pull you under now
You're not above this ugly love, our ugly love
And I will never let you go, don't look down
And we can drown in this twisted unreality
Track Name: Create Me
Create Me

Don't stop, you're getting closer
I can feel a change is coming over
So hot, like a hunger
I've been waitin for you to surrender
Oh god how you've suffered
But now I'm taking over
Come and find me in the dark...
Give in to the danger

Give in to me
And surrender to your darkest dreams
Create me, create me
Liberate yourself and re­awake me
You're holding the key
Let me show you all that you can be
Create me and embrace me
Understand that you'll never sedate me

Oh god, it's getting harder
To sit and watch them tearing you assunder
You've got an avenger
Let me loose... I ache to be your saviour
You know your composure
Won't hold me any longer
Come and light the final spark...
lead me to the danger

Chorus

Create me, create me
Liberate yourself and re­awake me

If I create you will you be my guide?
If I free you now.... will you be on my side
Can you fight these voices? Can you save me from my mind?
You're the part of me that I deny
Go...lead me to the danger

Chorus

Create me, create me
Understand that you'll never escape me
Track Name: Blood and Rust
Blood and Rust

Misery is my lover and he won't let me go
Like a pain so familiar that it's kinda like home
When he's wrapping his fingers round my delicate throat
We're one with each other in this ugly, violent show

He says it's something about me, says that I am to blame
Cos my face is so pretty when it's twisted in pain
He's got to see how it hurts...know how I taste
Just itching to screw me up and then

You come to break me apart again
You come to tear me in half again

I feel a tug in stomach when he's coming inside
Cos a part of me hungers for the lust in his eyes
Now we're choking on blood and covered in rust
Cut us open and all you will find is just
Dead souls and all we'll ever feel is pain
I'd rather die than see you win again
Forcing a smile as I break and bend
So do your worst...

Aching, Bleeding, Praying, I'm pleading Oh god, oh god...let this end.

You come to break me apart again
You come to tear me in half again
And now you're forcing your way inside
But I'll stick pins in my eyes before I see how much you hurt me
Track Name: Out Of My Mind
I can't believe it came to this
Though how it happened is so clear to me now
Can you distract me with a kiss?
And push the pictures far away for me?

I wanna know, wanna know, wanna know how it feels to be at peace...I'm not afraid of it now
Cos now I know, now I know that I want to live I just don't know how

I don't care if you like me
I don't care if you hate me
I don't care if I scare you baby
I don't really care if you stay or run away
Can you stop me from thinking?
Pull me back from the brink and
Mollify all the voices screaming
I just need a break from the beating

Get me outta my mind
Get me outta my mind
Outta my mind
Wo­-oh­-oh oh

Didja look inside my head?
See perception too bizarre to allow
And when I'm facing off with it
You're like the buzzing of a fly to me

Cos heaven knows, heaven knows, heaven knows it's scarier than you could ever be tell me how
You could ever ever be as dangerous as I am right now?

Chorus

I don't care if you like me
I don't care if you hate me
Understand that I give you
Permission to hurt me
Come and distract me
You could never upset me
I give you permission
Get me out my mind
Track Name: The Broken Toys
I remember life at the beginning
Standing in my box how I would daydream
I was quite the loveliest of playthings
New and shiny too.... til it all changed

You had to pick me up and pull the heart string
Who's a lucky boy
I'm such a pretty little thing
Here to be enjoyed
So let the fun begin
Wanna play with me
Stroke my plastic skin?

All the toys lost and forgotten
The given up, rejected and rotten
Don't play this game anymore
To all the boys and girls that've suffered
The ugly dolls so unloved and unwanted
Now we are finding our voice
We are The Broken Toys

Dya have to play so rough
That stitches come away
Battered and beaten up
I get more ugly by the day
Pull my head clean off
And glue it back again
Stuffing all falls out
But you just shove it all back in
And leave me on the floor Until you're bored again
Try to fix me up
But know I'll never be the same
And with the damage done
There's nothing left to gain

Chorus

We all fall down again
We all fall down again

Gotta stitch up the wounds
And pick up the pieces
Nothing to lose
Cos we're already broken
And out of the blue
Your beautiful plaything's gonna turn on you

We'll be shouting the truth
And scream if we have to
With nothing to prove
Cos we're already broken
We're already broken
And we're gonna turn on
Turn on you

Chorus
Track Name: I See You
I See You

Are you there?
Can you hear me?
I am thinking of you

Are you hurt?
Are you lonely?
Hope my words get through

Did you know nobody's perfect?
We all fall down
See into the heart of you now

When you are lost
I will find you
Through the dark
I can see you
And you are loved
You are worthy
You can't hide
All the beauty
I can see you

Show me weak
Show me helpless
Show me something that's real

Don't be strong
Be defenceless
Know you can lean on me

When you go to places that scare you
And it all falls down
Look into the heart of me now
Chorus

Let me put my cards on the table
I've been where you are
I'll never see the stain of a label
Or a scar
You need to know that i wont reject you
Let's unbreak your heart
You are not the voices that shame you

When you are lost
I will find you
Through the dark
I can see you
And you are loved
You are worthy
You can't hide
All the beauty
I can see you